Sunday, November 18, 2007
Sunday, November 18, 2007 Y
Post title : girl's nite
♥ nothing is impossible for him.
hmm.. sat we have cl meeting.. yea.. we plan out thingy for christmas!! hehe.. saw the different leaders how they led n plan out.. :D
hmm..during sermon where pastor jeff share about faith.. it was funny and also makes mi ponder alot of thingy.. recently.. i was really awaken by god.. he makes mi see alot of things i have do in e past till now as a CLA..
i sometimes feel that izzit becoz i am not working v hard enough or becoz i am not there yet, i was not good enough to be a leader.. it makes mi ponder and when i look back to myself in e past till now.. i changed alot.. but this causes mi not being my real self anymore..i feel so much better n happy last time.. i miss my buddy, i miss my laughter with them, i miss the time where i am still in a friendship term with amanda.. we have so much laughter n share our problems together.. i am no longer e jenny i am that i used to be and have..
but when i ponder about this problem.. i think that it is not that bad as i have think.. i still have god.. i have changed my character n attitude.. i still went out with the 4 queenies and the guys, though not close.. but i noe i still have e memory with them in my heart.. though amanda n mi, there is something in between us, but i can still help her to grow n also she can still share her problems to mi n i'll do my best to help her..
as for cg.. i still have pei qi and mei yi to help n support mi.. with them i am enough.. i no longer wan2 press on the rest too much le.. cos is useless.. it all depends on their willingness and relationship with god.. i dun wanna to nag n nag.. cos i feel that is useless.. but i believe one day god is gonna knock real hard on their head to be awake!! i gonna pray hard for this to happen.. i no longer wan2 look into this area for now.. but i gonna look more outwardly to e future sheep n grand sheep outside..
i believe i can do it.. i no longer wan2 weak.. NO CRYING anymore.. no more!! i gonna walk tog with god on the white path tog hand in hand with a smile.. persevere is e key.. :D
i will continue to pray for pei qi n mei yi.. :D jia you gers.. i noe wat ya all are facing.. live it up to him.. :D
ger's nite was fun.. haha.. doing nail art.. chat together.. praise.. share out our troubles n burden.. play tog.. dance tog.. lol..
this allow the gers to noe each other even more.. :D haha.. all of us was having fun.. haha.. alot of boo boo and also really play n enjoy tog.. haa.. it was mad to really spend time with e gers for mi.. haha.. i will be adnormal and really dare to do things even though is ugly.. LOL.. esp e one in e bus.. toopid pei xin.. haha.. but it was real fun!! :o
god bless :p
